What doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger.
Bob and I got into a huge misunderstanding couple of days ago.
I guess my worst fear of becoming a monster bride has finally got into me, transforming me to a very picky/emotional/attention seeker bride. The fantasies of an ideal engagement went to my head, and sadly, I… went overboard.
I was looking for something - I was constantly asking..for more.
What I have failed to realize is that this is Bob that I’m marrying, and that it doesn’t actually matter what amount of effort we put into the wedding - all that matters is the LIFE after the wedding - Our Marriage.
It took me one day trip to Baras, Rizal to clear my head. I guess it has always been the best therapy to me, being with the kids, facilitating a psychosocial support, has always been my medicine… my reality checker. A day trip to a very far place made me realize that who I am right now - whatever I am capable of doing right now - is because there’s always this one person who never fails to support me… Bob.
I’m glad that I’m marrying the only person in the world that I can hate for five minutes and love for the next twenty-three hours and five-fifty five minutes of the day. The only person I can fight with - but still love me for nothing less. I’m glad I’m marrying my best friend, my confidant.
Why God has blessed me this much - I still don’t know. But I’m overwhelmed. Thank you Lord, for giving me the person I will love forever - at 22.
To Bob,
I’m sorry for the things I’ve said - believe me when I say, I take it all back.
There’s no one else in the world that can love me the way you do. Honestly, I don’t know where all that love is coming from. You are a miracle.
You are my best friend. You are the only person in this world where I can really be myself. I’m glad that I don’t have to fake a halo for you to love me, I can be a beast with the deadliest poison and you would still love me, see, that’s how blessed I am, and I’m sorry for the countless number of times that I have forgotten that.
The three years of my life that I have spent with you is the best years of my life and I know that the rest of my life would be just as happy - even better.
Your monster-bride,(although not so much now),
Elay
